Had great time dancing around and taking pictures.. I was so high and lost myself.. and unleashed the playful/wild side of me..
We got the complimentary pass to a club named Maison. I, for the very first time really really anticipate to going clubbing!! My inner wild side of him had unleashed, k? But we can't find any transportation to go there and come back inti, so we had no choice but to cancel the plan.. We all were so disappointed like pour cold water on us..
After the great night or i shall say great dream, we got back to the reality (inti).. Going to ball and shake our ass off was a great way to escape from the reality.. The micobiology test is on next wednesday and yet i have not start reading and not forgetting the journals that are due on wedesday..
That's it for now.. very tired and late edi. stop here..
p.s. after dress up nice nice, sure lah need to cam-whore a bit la..
This gonna be another emo post again.. even the title says it all..
Life’s not fair, don’t you just agree? Some people are more fortunate than others. I know the fact the life is always not fair. And we can’t just sit down there and complain whatever unfair events befall on us, rite?
But, sometime i just can’t help it but to complain..
Recently got back my journals for biochem. I got the lowest marks compared to my friends same group of mine. I was disappointed. I ain’t that so kiasu, k? What matter was we did the journal together and basically we wrote the same answer and i got lower marks.. If i not wrong, i got the lowest marks in the class. We did journal together and how can i got lower marks than the rest?
And some other people were just tagging along and didn’t contribute much during our discussion. Not that they didn’t contribute at all la, but were minimum nia.. I did more job than them yet got lower marks.. so unfair to me.. all i did at that time was to accept the fact. Took quite long to accept it..
Everything seems like going wrong to me. Everything i did was failure as if i was born to be a failure... sigh.. test coming very soon, i can’t afford to fail any subject this semester or else i would not be to fly next year... and this sem’s subject even more harder than previous sem. Microbiology itself gave me or rather my whole class a headache. The subject alone is fine but taught by strict and unfriendly and always “black face” lecturer, make us all scare about this subject as i said before.. Sometimes i even thought whether i am suitable to be in this course anymore.. but if i don’t take this course, i can’t think of any course to take edi.. guess, i just have to hang on and continue fight until one day i breakdown lo..
Anyhow, i believe when there’s high time, there’s low time..i’m now facing the low period nia. Hopefully with the new month today, will treat me better, at least i am free from those unfairness..
Actually it’s because i can’t think of a title for this post lah. But anyway, this Ke$ha’s song very catchy mah...Blah blah blah~~~
Ok, back to the post, it’s always good to have a blog where you can rant and rant and rant like an old grandma.. i’ll be the “grandma’ today..
To start off with, busy days will be coming soon. Sooner than i thought. Every time see other people happily wandering on the street, my friends and i would wonder why they got so much free time le? Guess they must be from engineering program.. May be we all in this course are destined to be super duper busy all the time..
Writing at least three journals for every week is compulsory. Not to mention assignment as well. Not only that, we now have to do another assignment called problem-based learning which we learn from a problem the lecturer gave us. See, memang burdening us only for the sake of the title inti UNIVERSITY!! Busier than a bee ar... buzz~~ buzz~~ buzz~~
Besides that, test coming in as well. Three tests back-to-back for three weeks.. This semester’s syllabus going to be so much harder than previous one. And, the failing rate is higher than passing rate in Microbiology as many of my seniors retake this subject. The lecturer is my head of program. She’s very strict and very unfriendly!! So scare to approach her. According to my senior/friend, she, to extreme extent, DISLIKES many students to pass!! She prefers students to FAIL!! And, i just became her victim. I fail in her assignment. Never in my life and dream that i would fail my assignment!! The assignment was rather easy but she very stingy in giving marks. I was 0.5 away from the passing score!! Shit la.. Worse still, inti (again) set up a new policy that whoever FAIL in their ASSGINMENTS or tests will be sent to student counselling centre for a cuppa of coffee to study why students fail? OMG!! I’ll be her first person from my program to be sent for counselling. This is so embarrassing!! Hopefully i will not face the board...
On another note, recently i have leather-shoe fetish. I have been looking at men’s working shoes whenever got the chance to. This fetish started when i searching for a nice leather shoe for the inti ball. This is the first inti event i joined for the past 3 years. I never like this kind of event but since all my classmates going, no choice lo.. now have headache, don’t know what to wear.. anyway, any idea on where to get affordable and nice vest?
Stop here la. Need to finish my journals before start studying...
Of late, i was a bit naughty. So bored during the holidays. Plus parents were away and alone at home. Had the freedom to do anything i want during that period.
What’s better than having the house all by you? For that one week when parents were away, the house was mine. I was the “tuan rumah” temporary. Brother and sister were off to work in the afternoon. I’m unofficially in charge for the welfare of my home. From clearing the dustbin to washing the toilet. From sweeping the floor to vacuuming the room. All which i will not do whenever they are around. Spoilt brat me...
With them all not around, i got to be all myself. Things that i would like to do whenever nobody is around. Walking around the home in underwear, camwhore-ing, and doing ‘naughty’ things..
But there’s always a negative side. I was too bored staying at home. Plus, my friend was on his holiday. Again, no company; guai guai stayed at home and jaga-ing after the break in. So, brought my lappie to Starbucks and stay hours there. Not to mention spent big bucks for the drinks as well. I like the drinks, k? Had been spending so much money on that lately. Addicted kua...
Speaking about spending money, i think i employ such a policy of ‘new semester, new cloths’. Since few semesters ago, i had been practicing this money-spending policy. Shopping is a good therapy after the result. Besides, shopping can kill time too..
bought this shirt from PDI on discount..
Then, shopping alone not enough to fill my time. I was so bored at home to an extent that i tried to find chores to do!! I was so like my mum – constantly finding chores to do. So, i tried to ironed 2 of my brother’s shirt, and my short pants. I took almost an hour to finish ironing. My sister even told me to go over his place and iron her cloths.. Again, all those stuffs i won’t do when mother is around.
And now, new semester had started, bored as well. Always that free during the first week. And it is this week that we are all free. I can foresee those busy weeks to come very soon.. nevertheless, enjoy and appreciate this week is what i doing..
Besides Brothers & Sisters, Ugly Betty is my another favourite series. It’s a comedy-drama series that first shown on tv on 2006. Sadly, due to the low ratings, ABC, the broadcaster, cancelled the series. The last episode was shown on 14thof April but i only learn it ended last week. Gosh, gonna miss Ugly Betty.
Betty Suarez in Season 1 with braccs
When the braces removed, she so beautiful!!!
I like this series so much because i can easily relate myself to the character in the series besides it was a fashion series with nice cloths. Literally, I can see myself in Betty Suarez!! The thing that is common in me and her is we both have braces. And no, i don’t wear like her style – clashing patterns.
She’s always thinks positively and never seems to have gloomy period. Even though she has down time, she has a supportive family to come home to. This is what i always hope for...
I will always have a good laugh after watching this series. I gonna miss that too.. i’ll miss those acting from the characters. I’ll miss Hilda as hilarious and supportive sister, miss flamboyant Marc, miss how Marc and Amanda ridicule Betty, and also Wilhelmina.
Justin on the left with Austin on the right.. Austin twinkish, right?
I was a bit bored with this series. But towards the end, my interest for this series grew. Especially when Austin, Justin’s boyfriend, came into scene. Yes, Justin is gay, i knew it!! He’s gay from the first season, seeing his interest in fashion. Austin is very cute and his smile is so sweet. I repeat the same scene for so many time just to see Austin’s cute face and sweet smile..
Their first kiss. I like the kiss scene, spontaneous..
They reunited and became couple
Kiss kiss again. Caught by Bobby, Hilda's husband
Dating..
Justin needs some time to accept his sexuality. And finally came out with bravery to his family!! And danced with Austin in front of his family..
They made up a cute couple!! But why they only paired up at the last few episodes? I want more of their scenes together, especially Austin!!
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On the other note, love is in the air!! Though my brother didn’t make an official statement, but i guess the girls he brought back home for two days (yesterday and today) is his gf!! Wah... finally he found one. Our family has been waiting for this day!! Dine dinner with him and his gf; total awkward! I didn’t know what to talk to her? I was so cool with her until one point she asked: do you not like me? Why you don’t have a word with me? Omg!!! Glad for him too...
Then, received a phone call from my friend. He told me my close friend, Shake, is going real with our classmates!! He started liu (in mandarin) aka making fun with her. And then after the Kukup trip and after she played piano, they got together two days after they went back to their respective hometown! I hope he’s going serious with her.. haiz... Class starting tomorrow and appear another classroom romance.. This whole semester we got a "movie" to watch edi... haha...
It all happened very fast. Guess that’s their yuan. Jealous-nya.. Haiz.. people nowadays get to find the partner easily.. me le? Haiz... going to be single for whole life till i die bah... sob sob sob...
Been blogging since 2006. That means i have been writing for almost 4 years now. I started out writing when i was in form 5. Back then, i didn’t write much. Most of the postings were just my ranting.. More like a personal diary to me.
It was my private blog where i wrote about my personal life. Until last year’s August, i shut down that blog and open this one.
I open this blog as i am now in uni, a new phase of my life, and i think everything should be different. That blog was my past. It was time to turn over a new leaf, i thought. So here i am at the new blog though not attractive and flaws are everywhere.
But i can say the way i write had changed for better from the past. In terms of English, my grammar has improved. But there’s still room for improvement.
The drive for me to change and write better English came when i open this blog. As my previous blog not visited by any readers at all, i don’t care about my English. I laughed when read back my old posts. The grammar was so broken!! But now, i have visitors. I need to take good care of my image and this blog’s image!!
And having visitors and comments at my blog are fun!! Last time when i wrote something i got no response. After some time will feel bored. Now, after posting new post, i’ll be waiting for comments. The feeling of receiving comments is fun too!! So everyone out there, please leave comments ya?
As i was told by my friend cum senior, semester 3 will be not easy and will be so damn BUSY!!
Everything will change in this semester upon the departure of that friend, i knew it! His was my company when eating dinner. So, it only left me with another two company for dinner time. The two of them are always together; some sort of one gang and me and that friend form another gang. There were times me and my friend eat dinner without the other gang. The worst thing was that they will either inform us last minute or never inform us at all if they not joining us for dinner.
Now that my friend had left, i was worried that i had to eat alone every time whenever they were busy. Oh, by the way, that was the excuse they gave us for not joining us dinner. How lame was it? No matter how busy they are, they still have to eat rite? Just gave us plain excuse..
That was what i thought – eating alone whenever they are busy. But i never know that they are THAT busy every time i asked whether got dinner anot? I was rejected every time i asked for a dinner. That whole January was a stressful and disappointment month for me. Stressful because need to cope with new and tough level-two subjects. Disappointment because never-ending rejection from them. My mind will start thinking whether they want to have dinner with me or not? And sometimes i will scare to text them, trying not to receive those rejecting messages. For this whole one semester, we only eat dinner together twice.
I did receive messages from him saying they are busy, not eating dinner. I continue receive those messages until my CNY break. After the break, never receive any messages from them. Usually one of them will contact me as we are closer because we were schoolmates. From the break onwards, we never text each other anymore. Guess he also sien to write the same message over again. Me, on the other hand, also malas to message because i don’t want to face the disappointment anymore.
In the end, i either had my dinner alone or i didn’t eat. I can’t remember how i went through those time eating alone but thank gosh it all had already gone. I don’t have any problem eating alone but i just mind the glances from other people. People will be saying: so kolian this guy eat alone. No friends to teman. Ok, no one actually saying those lines, just i thought myself.
But luckily i still have my very own classmates. They were my company for dinner. Whenever after class, we’ll go eat dinner together. So, February and March were better months; got people eating dinner with me. And i also like to eat dinner with my big group of friends rather than 4 guys including me last time. With more people, more talk and more laughter!! And most importantly, i was happier and my bond with them got stronger!!
Maybe i should thank the two of them. If they continue accompanying me, i won’t get closer with my classmates. I, myself could not think we got closer by eating dinner every time.
The friend that left me specifically asked how was my ex-schoolmate doing? I simply replied him: i don’t know. Long time didn’t see him. Didn’t eat dinner with him liao. He was surprise with my reply. He asked me what happen but i couldn’t reply his question because i myself also don’t know what happen. Fine. They don’t want to eat dinner with me simply because they don’t want to see me. I got it. That ex-schoolmate brushed me aside, he brushed our 7 years of friendship aside too. There was once i met him at cafeteria, i didn’t know what to talk to him. May be long time didn’t meet up, no topic to talk edi.
I’m so damn kau excited lo!! I can feel my sex hormone is in my blood right now... and this sex hormone just makes me so excited.
*look at the clock* WAT!! It’s 2.21 am and i still not yet on bed?
I am so excited and i decide to write this down. I have been really, really busy lately due to tonnes of reports and assignment to hand in. I need to hand in 7 reports including journals in this week. Slept very late. And now i still writing this post.
Why on earth am i so excited?
It’s about that hunky neighbour. I finally saw him topless in near proximity (actually last Monday i saw in topless). We were in the toilet just now. i scanned his body. He wears boxer and walks everywhere with it!!
Ok la. Can consider a hunk though he has no visible six packs. A meaty one. Unlike HIM, a lean body. He goes to gym every day i suppose as he has the fitness center towel.By judging his muscular body, he must be a gym rat la...
He’s a hunk. And that drives me crazy!!! Hahaha... if i’m not mistaken, he’s the first hunk that i ever seen topless in reality! Of course i saw endless time on internet la, but not in reality and in close proximity.
*Back to reality*
I still like HIM to this hunky one. i don’t know, maybe i encountered HIM more time than the hunky one. And i had more feelings to HIM. (as if i had anything with HIM before).
In the end, i need to get rid of this hunky one from my head as fast as possible before my idiot brain start to think nonsense.
p.s. tomorrow i still got test 1 for GEN and i still haven’t sleep!! It’s 2.37 am!! Argh!!!!
About me? An ordinary guy who is studying at Nilai, geeky type and afraid of not getting good result. A person who has many secrets about him but afraid to reveal to public. Hence, here is the place I reveal my secrets bit by bit without any knowledge of my family and friends.
