From past record, I tend to be more negative when examination is approaching. This time, the same as well. My mind and body filled with negativity thoughts.. oh yar, my exams in on 23 and 28 of June (next week!!).
Negativity thoughts to the extent of giving up.. past few weeks I was rushing to finish my assignment before the deadline. With so many things to do and not forgetting to start revision, I started to think of letting it go and fail.. Oh well, I was not alone. My housemates were thinking the same way as well.
I was fragile at that time. Wait, I was fragile from the time I came here. With lack of family support (physically), I am fragile and loss of confidence. But then again, if I fail those two papers, I would have to retake again and delay my graduation. Not only that, I have to pay again A$12k (equivalent to MYR36k++) to retake the paper!! That’s a waste of time and money. Most importantly I will disappoint my parents’ expectation on me. So, no! I can’t afford to fail!!
If you ask me to pay more attention, I did but I just can’t seem to concentrate. The subjects were very though! And the question style is different from inti. Here, the questions were more to critical thinking rather than direct-type of questions. Worst of all, my basic is not strong enough to answer the application-type of questions! Die la!! So, that means I may not answer the question correctly even though I manage to memorize all the notes.
I just started reading the notes on last Sunday and I have many, many more to come.. but now I feel more confident after reading a few chapters.
I don’t expect for high distinction, a pass is all I wanted. Hoping for the best to come...
