I have just finished my first paper, CHM. i don’t think i did well this time.
In the calculation part, i did so badly, i guess. My answers were weird. Very weird. How can a boiling point be negative value leh? Haiz.
The questions seemed easy but when we calculate them, not easy at all. That’s what my friend, shake said.
I agree.
Anyways, it all over. No point for me to regret or rant anymore.
*today is my first day of final, tomorrow is my last day of final. So ironic*
In less than 8 hours i will be sitting for my semester 2 finals.
I feel like giving up. Or maybe i am lazy.
This semester i have to sit for 2 papers. That’s why i am a bit lazy. So far i already pass my MCB and my chem needs 4 more marks to pass.
Maybe i aimed too high? I wanted to maintain my CGPA. So i need to get all A for this semester. I just push myself too hard edi la. i need to break. That’s why i wanted to give up. How nice i just give up just like that.
Another reason why i want to give up maybe i was too disappointed to myself. Other friends have been getting better result than mine. It’s like no matter how hard i studied, i still lost to them.
Haiz.
Ok lah, need to prepare to sleep edi la.
The feeling of waiting the exam is killing me indefinitely. I just hope i can pass with flying colours and maintains my GCPA.
p.s. i will not give up!!!! damn for whatever reason i think this way, but one thing for sure i will not give up!!! i will strive through this rain and there will be rainbow for me. Hopefully there will be the love of my life at the end of that rainbow, instead of a pot of gold. hahaha...
Why all unfairness came to me?
Ok, maybe not all.
But i just feel unfair-ed.
Last Wednesday my MCB lec gave us back our test 2 papers and thank god i was doing well. At least i got an A this time. At least i was not the bottom person neither the top among my friends. I’m versatile! Haha..
So, who got the no. 1? No no no not a gal. This time that girl lost to a guy!!
That guy was my friend!!The one from Penang. And he was once the borderline student. Meaning ngam ngam pass student. But now he got the highest mark in the class!! Even the once top student also lost to him. by the way, he got 63.5 out of 65!! Meaning he got 97.7%!!
Maybe this time he studied really hard and his effort paid off, but the other side of me denying his success. Bad of me.
But i really can’t help to think of it. maybe i’m jealous of his success?
The reason i said this is because he’s very close with my lecturer. Maybe he had some extra tips from him? Anyway, my lecturer gave us very obvious tips to us all. So actually we are equal in terms of knowing the tips. So the other side of me is accusing him of having extra and specific tips from my lecturer.
Maybe, i’m jealous. No lah. Maybe it is just unbelievable. Or i simply deny everything which is my strength in it. Haha. I gave him the benefit of doubt.
So in the end, he deserved that result. (if without any extra tips)
p.s. see i wasn’t truly believes him! no lah. Just kidding only. He, indeed, deserved that result after hours of sleepless night to get MCB fact into his head.
Urgh... i don’t know why am i thinking this way... i hate girls. I always see a girl and i will say “bitch u” inside my heart, of course. Wahahahahaha....
Not that they somehow treated me badly. Just got a feeling to call them bitch in my heart.
I really have no idea since when i started using the word bitch as i don’t use that word last time. Just wanted to spit out those words. my heart feels better after that. Wow, crazy me.
May be i have a solid reason to support me, i guess.
I have this thought of girls being weak and often bullied by others especially guys. Dah lah already weak as a lady, they need to train themselves to be strong and not to be too reliable to men.
I kind of look down on those women who are too reliable to her boyfriend/husband. Ok, look down might be too strong to describe it la. But i will tell myself why they must be too reliable to their bf/hubby? On the other hand, i will praise or admire those ladies that are independent and have their strong vision. So actually i don’t hate all girls, rite? I do admire those girls with visions and the attitude of not dependent to other people especially guys.
Guys suck! I now I’m guy too. I really, really feel that a guy has gone abroad the line if acting violently on gf/wife. I disgrace them. Even infidelity, i still can accept. But hurting women are the bad bad thing in this world, i think. At least, infidelity will not hurt much on women; it’s more to mentally rather than physically hurt the women. I know because my cousin sister was involved in this domestic violent and it has been bothering her and her family for years.
Just now i watched a Japanese movie entitled, Koizora or Sky of Love. When the time this movie was released 2 years ago, i was so eager to watch it but didn’t because no partner to accompany me. i thought it was a romantic one but apparently it was more like a porn. And both lead actor and actress are slut. All they do was SEX. I have reason, k.
There was one scene where the schoolboy lead actor brought that schoolgirl lead actress to his house. They were kissing and... bed scene. This one is not making love; they just sleep on the same bed, hugging. Then another scene was they really make love. The venue? At library! OMG!! library? And that library is no people.
Worst thing was before they made love at library, that main actress was raped by a gang!! She showed sign of awkwardness when that guy kiss her, but later gave in. Heck! She was raped and have sex again.
The no-eye-see was that schoolgirl follows him to his house and in his room. They should have some sort of limits. Is this show the openness of Japanese?
I thought this whole movie would be a romantic and moving love story. But it turns out to be some sort of pornography. Luckily i didn’t call my friend to accompany me to watch with me. so pai seh. All sex only. Anyway, i have not finish the whole movie, i will refrain from commenting further.
So i can see the weakness in that lead actress’ character. Women should STAND UP!! Fight for your rights. I support women to fight their rights but not going too much until my rights have been robbed by them.
I don’t hate girls, after all.
p.s. i am dying for a ticket to Beyonce concert this Sunday. I'll do anything for a VIP ticket. Please please... neh, i will just wait someone upload a video on YouTube lah.
I would still prefer to become the passenger though.
And what a reward i got from becoming one-day driver last Saturday.
First i had to fetch my aunt from my home to Toyota’s Service Centre at Jenjarom. Heck, so far. After drop her there, i received a call from my mother and asked me to drive up to Subang. She needs to see the Chinese doctor for her hand.
No choice, i ha to drive up to Subang. This is my first time driving alone to Subang and to Jenjarom. I never drive so far away from my town. The reason is my mother always doesn’t allow me to drive to that far places. That’s why i always say, my driving licence is only valid within Klang. I never drive out from Klang before. Ok la another reason is I’m lazy to drive la. Why want to drive since i have my dad as a driver?
And the reward (hardly any reward la) is got to see a very leng chai doctor at the clinic. He’s very cute lo. What an eye-candy....
p.s. tomorrow is my MCB test 2 and i am lazy to study. Maybe because that lecturer is not like Ms See. But we all selamba only...
