Blogs That I Read

I like reading blogs. They have taken my time when i surf the net. It has been one year plus since i start reading blogs. Blogs that i read are gay blogs. What i mean is blog written by gays. Most of them are local gay bloggers. I have been quietly following their blogs for one year without leaving a comment. I can easily generate readers to my blog by leaving a comment on their blog, but i don’t want. I want to have a space of my own without any readers. By so, i can pour out my feeling here with no hesitation!!

It was around October 2008 i found Robb’s blog by chance. Can’t recall how i found his blog. Then, don’t know how i came to Ryan’s blog. I don’t know why i have great feeling for him even though i don’t know him.

There is a blog that i knew long time but don’t dare to click, which is Calvin’s blog. The name of his blog is Strictly Gay. I was a bit taken back when clicking his blog though the content is not explicit one. He’s too a very nice guy.

My recent hook up is Simon’s blog. He’s a funny person. About his blog’s content, there are few funny posts with male models- sexy models. He post a lot of eye-candy pictures. I can cuci mata. Haha...

For the sophisticated blogs, that will be Nase’s blog. He writes very well and i always touched by his sweet posts. Next, Sam’s blog, i also like very much. But when he moved to the recent blog, i don’t like that much as i used to in his previous blog. Maybe he is matured in writing. The sophisticate blog among sophisticated blogs will be Bedtime Stories blog. Reason? Because whatever he writes, i don’t understand. His English is so deep. I hardly understand his posts.

Reading those blogs has pros and cons. The advantages are i get to know other gays out there. How they live in this not-so-conservative community as openly gay. They SEEM to live a normal live like ordinary straight people. Besides, my English has improved so much after much reading. I can write better compare to last time in my old blog. I want to improve my English badly. I starting to listen to English songs and watch English dramas and movies. Hopefully these will improve my English.

The downside of reading gay blogs, i become gayer. Haha. I feel gayer after reading those blogs. Maybe i know myself better- i’m gay. I am quite sure that every gay out there will explore other gays just to know ourselves better. At least i know i’m not the odd one. Therefore i will say “gays are within us just that we can’t identify them”. I found out that there are many gays in the town. Take Klang as an example, i know there are 2 gays from blogs. So i am not the odd one in Klang lah. Maybe i am the first and only gay in my resident.

I often melt reading those blogs especially they write their sweet moment with his bf. I admire them so much. I also want someone to take care and love me. Maybe i’m gay, all i dream is a bf instead a gf. I’m so confuse. Perhaps i’m gay... Should be lah... I will remain as straight until i find a bf.

I have more interest in guys rather than girls. So, i should be gay?

Turning 20 Part 3

A day before my BIG day, my parents and i went to Genting to celebrate our birthdays. My mum and i shared the same birthday. As usual, my aunt will belanja us dinner or lunch. This time she treated us at Garden Terrace. A buffet dinner.

The last time i had buffet was at Tenji. The buffet was not as good as Tenji. But i still prefer Oriental Hotel’s buffet. Great food with great service.

A little retreat during that night was i saw a handsome guy. He is under my “fine” category. He defined the word F.I.N.E. My definition of “fine” is not only handsome guy but he needs to have the rich, young, tall and stylish appearance.

The whole night i was looking at him. When he stands beside me, my jaw dropped! He is tall and wears very stylish. Looks like a “fa fa kong zi”. I saw him twice some more le. The second time i saw him was after my dad and i watched a magic show. I was surprised to see him again.

I always want to treat myself with a big present using my own money. Some more i need a new jeans, so i thought of buying new jeans with my own money!! With Padini’s RM30 cash voucher and discount, i bought SEED jeans. The first time i saw the jeans i fell for it!! It wasn’t look like the normal jeans. The quality of the jeans is different from others lo. Total i paid for the jeans was RM97.2. What a good bargain!! Quite worth it i thought. Coz normally Padini will not have discount for jeans. I hope i will continue this trend to pamper myself once a year especially using my own money. I will even more appreciate the jeans.

Turning 20 Part 2

My second present from a friend that i not much like. *sorry*

I am the only secondary school friend that still layan him in my group of friends. Others completely cut connection with him. He is Poh.

My friend asking me why i still want to talk to him or want to go out with him? Actually i was reluctantly talked to him every time he called. Every time he called me i never called him before unless the miss call. Need to return call mah...

So he said he wants to celebrate my birthday with me. Fine. We went out (i went out with him not because the present,k!) on last Thursday.

Watched 2012. A movie that emphasised compassion among human beings. By the way i watched twice some more. The second time watched is with my close friend.

I told him i am not sure to choose either 1 + 2 or 2 + 1 for my twinning course. He preached me le!! He indirectly saying i’m immature le!!! May be i’m sensitive la...

Whatever he said that day i did thinked of it thoroughly. But what he said was true also la..

The present? He gave me a mug or cup. I knew it. The message on the cup surely got something related to God. Oh yar, he is a baptised Protestant.

Turning 20 part 1

I turned 20 two days ago!! So i am officially a young adult. No more a teenager.

Had a few presents. One of them is from my sister. It’s a watch from Elements.

It is a metallic watch. A watch that i want so much since it is an adult watch. It is about my age to own this kind of watch. I had a “younger” watch which i don’t think it is appropriate wearing it to formal function.

It is not expensive. That’s why my sister bought it la. It costs around RM30.

My first metallic watch

As you can see in the picture, it’s thin. Not heavy like those expensive metallic watches.

Nevertheless, i still appreciate that watch.

Raining Season...

It has been raining like cats and dogs for the last few days... Here comes the monsoon again...

Raining non-stop resulting a cold environment. This is the moment where i will dream how nice i will have someone to hug to make me feel warm. I so want to squeeze someone right now!!

The problem is that i don’t have anyone to hug or squeeze except my bolster. Always end of year, i will typically dream about how nice i will have someone by my side. I always want that special person.

What make things worse is I found a new blog called pocket of sunshine. In his blog, he talks how he met his prince charming. He met his prince charming by chance. Seems to be fated. One day his car broke down at raining night. No one came to help him. Out of sudden, a car stopped, which is his prince charming, stopped and helped him. So like the scene in the Taiwanese idol drama.

He is lucky to meet someone that helped him when he needed help. So happen they fall for each other!! It is like match-made in heaven. On top of that, his prince charming is rich, tall, and best of all, muscular with abs and pecks!! Omg!!

That’s a perfect and idealistic lover!! I so want this kind of lover!! Haha!!!

I don’t need a washing board alreadi. I can hand wash my clothings on his pecks!!!

So jealous of him.

Will there be a special one waiting for me? I need love, desperately. I want to be loved and love another person. I want to taste the feeling of being loved, and cared by someone. I want to feel being appreciated and needed. I really hope to have that special person.

I am so desperate...