Between Gay and Straight

Later in the afternoon i will be having CHM test 1 and i am seriously not feeling good for this time! So here i am writing this post after my MCB lecturer forced us to go to his class just because the student evaluation. He said he wanted to cancel the class but because this damn student evaluation, he can’t do so. Immediately after the evaluation, he dismissed us! Fuck! If he cancel the class, then i wouldn’t need to wake up early and i will have time to study my CHM. Since i’m still awake, i decide to write something.

As the title says it all, how to distinguish between gay and straight?

Below will be the characteristic of a gay guy.

Very fashionable. Gays seem to be gifted with the power of wearing nice stuff on them. On the other hand, straights wear more down-to-earth type of clothing. Can’t blame the straight for wearing such because they will be accused of gay if they wear something extraordinary.

However, people nowadays are modern and brave to wear something out loud and daring clothing. Metrosexual, that’s what they call them. So, you really tell them gay or straight by just looking at their clothing.

Wears loud colour especially PINK. Last time where got guy wearing pink? Since don’t know when men start to wear in pink. But, again, people are metrosexual, can’t tell them gay or not.

“Sissiness”. If a guy very super duper sissy, then most probably he is gay. I’m not discriminating anyone but just telling as it is. In other words, he is soft.

Last but least, the gays’ underwears are usually loud colours! Who’s more fetish on underwear than gays? Definitely those with many pieces of loud colours of undergarment are gay! In my hostel, i can see so many varieties of colours of underwears from red to blue colour. Some even are branded like renoma. I always like to peep their underwear whenever i am outside. I like those underwears but i don’t think so the underwears are nice when put on me lo. I lagi prefer to cuci mata than put on me.

So, in that case, my hostel has many gay lo, rite? No! See, again, people have colourful underwears does not mean they are gay. I can 100% sure that my hostel nor uni has any gay lo. I wonder what give them the courage to buy and wear those colourful underwears? Don’t they afraid others accusing them gay? Or, maybe they don’t know gay wear loud underwear? Or simply they are gay? Haha...So confuse. They are straight yet they wear gay-er than gay guy.

They are so straight yet so gay.

p.s: when i’m on way to come back just now, i saw HIM. He wears yellow again. Very loud colour! I used to say him so gay yet so straight. Then in afternoon, i saw him again at cafeteria. He was eating over there alone. So kelian. Don’t know where are his girls gone? He used to be surrounded by girls. Later, i saw him again the third time! Yeah! We so got “yuan”. Don’t know whether he notice me anot le?

p.p.s: the description for gay listed above is my own opinion. It maybe false fact, ok? And some of the descriptions are based on HIM too, though he might not be gay la.

A Week of Many Things Happen

One week of study break came and went just like that. For this whole one week, i didn’t do anything that i initially planned to do. I didn’t study for my upcoming test for CHM and MCB. I didn’t manage to finish all my lab reports. I have been procrastinate things which is my main advantage.

However, this week was an exciting and adventurous for me. I catch up with my friend from Terengganu together with his course mates. A boring outing as they keep on talking about their friends this and that. I was quiet at that moment, not much topic i can talk. But everything finished fast and we had karaoke session again. Really pokkai.

Then for adventurous, i went to Skytrek at Bukit Cahaya with my other families. We chose the Big Adventure as we are still beginners. Ok to me. We took an hour and a half to finish the adventure. It was fast. I was like: huh? Finish edi? So fast! Not tiring at all. The toughest task was when climbing up a ladder made of the plastic pipe. It required the arm strength.

And come to the exciting part, i had a crush on someone at my cousin sister’s wedding. He is my cousin sister’s side of family. So technically he too my far far cousin! Omg!! Hardly a crush. Just that the whole wedding ceremony, i was focussing on him. He’s tall and has nice face features. The face feature that i like. Actually last Saturday at my cousin sister’s dinner at home i noticed him carrying the professional-like camera. He was the cameraman on that day, i guess. Then yesterday, which was the actual wedding date, i saw him again in the morning. He wore that SEED t-shirt which i wore before and even took picture with it. But i didn’t own it. That shirt is nice; fits him well. Or, he has a nice body, looks well on any shirt. His jean was nice as well, sort of slim fit. Omg!! i was more into his garment rather than him. haha. I hardly know him la. I didn’t talk to him at all. No la he is my crush or what. Just that i can’t believe i had a chun far far cousin.

More exciting! I had wet dream but i didn’t wet my short. Does this consider a wet dream? Put that aside. I dreamt of myself having haircut at bathroom naked! That stylist naked too! I was crazy, i know. In my dream, i even saw that hairstylist’s dick! Wow. It was fun for another wet dream after so many months. I don’t recognise or know that hairstylist’s face. Haha. Wild dream!!!

But most of my time was at home playing with my nephew, Aidan, which was good time.

So there is it my one week break. I don’t want to go back Nilai. Thinking of class start tomorrow is suck!

Guardian Angel

A joke to share with you all. This joke is from my CHM lecturer. Here it goes.

One day, Ah Beng (he likes to call everyone ah beng and ah lian) was walking at a small junction. Then suddenly a voice appears!

Voice: Ah Beng, stop! Don’t walk forward! There’s a fallen vase ahead.

So, Ah Beng stop. The voice was right. A vase fell down just right in front of Ah Beng.

Ah Beng thought he’s lucky. He continue walking. Then again, the voice appears.

Voice: Ah Beng, stop! A car gonna run over you!

Ah Beng stop and a car drive away in front of him!!

Ah Beng: Who are you? (referring to the voice)

Voice: I’m your guardian angel.

Ah Beng: Why didn’t you appear at my wedding registration?

Immediately after the lecturer finished the sentence, i laughed out loud. Haha... Not many people laughed cause i think they don’t get his drift.

Quite funny, i would say. This is not an obvious joke. Need to think a little to get the meaning.

Complicated Love Story

I have a juicy gossip to share!!!

This friend of mine, let’s say K, a guy fall for a girl called SK. Only a few of us know about this. The funny part is even my lecturer also know about and he makes fun of K by saying K with SK.

A love can be simple or COMPLICATE one. Blame on K’s luck, SK is currently on a relationship with another guy!! That guy is now at Aus. Everyone one of us knew SK is still in the relationship. A strong one. Maybe K chose not to believe that fact but he said he thought SK already broke up with her bf.

That’s why he goes for her. Till one of my friends told him that she’s still has the strong tide with her bf. It’s too late for him to step back. Haiz.

What makes this whole thingy more complicate is that she didn’t straight away tell K whether she likes or doesn’t like K. She does not need to be a rocket scientist to know K is seeing her. We all know. There was one night where she and K were together talking the whole night till late 4 am. If SK doesn’t like or has any feeling for him, why would she want to talk till late night? According to him, there was ai mei. That makes K step even deeper.

It all started when we all making rumours of him liking SK. Can’t blame us because they seem to have the affinity. You see, when people start to talk about you with another person and you start to imagine stuff with her. The next you know is the feeling for her grows. So, the question is are you truly fall for her? Or it’s just imagination. I am not in any position to comment about his situation but those are my personal feeling and experience. Maybe he does like her.

He asked my opinion. I said go ahead knowing that she has boyfriends. This bf is her second bf!! If i were his shoe, i really don’t know! But what i support is to go what your feeling tells you. If you think this is right, then go for it even though you might hit the wall. Even though hit the wall, stand up again and take this as a lesson.

GO FOR WHAT YOUR FEELING TOLD YOU!!!

p.s. there you go, another secret is revealed

I MISS YOU...

What do you want now?

You left me just like that without a single word. I knew it when i came back here. I was hoping to see you again after the break. What i got was you leave me alone here.

Fine. You left me. I was sad. I faced it. Went through the hard time (hardly la). Thinking maybe it’s time to forget you once and for all. And now you come back??

What about now?

I thought i will take this chance to forget you. But we still met each other. If you want to leave me forever, just do it. You moved to another block, which is further than last time you stayed. Just to avoid me? Haha. Padam muka. Now you have to walk even further to class. HAHA.

There was once i saw you at the bridge. I didn’t notice you at first. When i saw you, i can see from your face telling me: hey, i’m here! Look at me. Your facial expression was telling me you were happy to see me. You smiled. Or is this my imagination? Maybe i was so desperate till imagine that? Don’t know whether you will feel the same?

Today i saw you twice. First was when you walked from block B to block C at academic block. I was at block B looking at you with your friends at level 4. I only saw your back and my heart told me it was you. Confirm. Then after my class, i saw you again for second time. You were waiting outside my class. You saw me. We were close. Around 25 cm away? I tried to look away. I was afraid to look at you. I do not want you to think that i have something for you. No eye contact.

What about now?

I DO MISS HIM...

In The Absence of You

“The black sandal.”

“OMG, where is he? How come another person came out from his room?”

“He left because he knew i stalk him?”

“He must be scare of me until he ran away.”

“Or maybe he forgot to book the room and someone else took the room.”

Those were the words in my mind when i didn’t see him come out from the room, instead another guy. He left already, but he still in here studying. He must have booked another block. Maybe scare of me stalking him.

When i came here after semester break, i saw the black sandal which i thought it was his. But little did i know that the sandal wasn’t him but another guy’s sandal. I was surprise that he’s in the room with his sandal outside cause normally he will not put his sandal outside. In that case, i will know whether he’s in the room or not based on the sandal. If the sandal is outside, most probably he’s in the room and vice versa.

Who is he? He is a guy staying a few rooms away from mine. At first i didn’t notice about him until the middle of last semester. The first time i had a short, short conversation with him was when i was doing my laundry and he came. I was blocking his way and i politely apologies. Guess what he replied? He said never mind in Mandarin. Since then, i labelled him as good person. If I’m not mistaken after that incident i notice about this guy. He is not a handsome, or hunk or cutie. But he is lean. Once i saw him topless, he’s lean almost zero fat and dark skin which contrast with this upper body skin colour. Another thing that captured me was the way he walked. Haha. He’s so sissy in walking. He’s like poh soon han but less sissy than psh. Haha. He’s just the se man type. That really captures me a lot. Besides, his voice was soft unlike me. A very very se man type la. i fantasized about him and as time pass by, i kind of fall for him. It wasn’t really like him. Just fantasized about him a lot.

Besides that, we always met each other everywhere. Not because we were staying in the same block but we saw each other outside our dormitory. Then, thanks to my creative mind, i said it was kind of destiny to meet each other very often. In 5 days, i almost met him every day. There were once he was at the pantry reading his book and i came in refilling my bottle. Only both of us were there. I was surprise to see him there. Awkward. I felt shy. After refilled, i quickly walked away. Thinking back all those sweet moment (at least to me it is) put a smile in my face. However, all those moment were flushed down the toilet when i saw another guy came out from his room. That means another new tenant occupying the room no. 52.

There was one morning i heard the opening-door sound from the room, i was excited thinking might be him coming out. Then mana tau another guy coming out from the room. My heart ached. This happened on the first week. This contributed why i cried. You see, when you hoping a thing so much and it doesn’t happen the way you want it, you will definitely devastated. I was down at that time plus the pressure from the studies and a bit of homesick. Haiz. I miss him. Not that i WANT him, just that i can see him and that’s fine. That’s enough. My heart was broken as if we were broke up. I want to listen to Leona Lewis’ Bleeding Heart and Better In Time. My heart bleed, literally...

I hope he didn’t purposely changed his room because of me. May be he scare of me stalking at him every day. No! I didn’t stalk him. Just that fate brought us together. If he changed his room because of me, i’m kinda like bian tai lo always stalk him. No! Then, another reason was may be he forgot to book in advance for the same room. Why am i thinking like this? Does this makes me feel better or i just trying to defend him? OMG!!!

Nevertheless, he’s gone for good or bad. Only heaven knows. Maybe i should start stop thinking of him since he gonna finish his SAM and i’m gonna leave next year. There is a saying in Cantonese saying short term pain is better than long term pain. I’m getting use without him. Saying this as if for the last semester i lived for him. NO!! I will be good without him and who know’s i would find better one, right?