On New Heights of Blogging!!

Been blogging since 2006. That means i have been writing for almost 4 years now. I started out writing when i was in form 5. Back then, i didn’t write much. Most of the postings were just my ranting.. More like a personal diary to me.

It was my private blog where i wrote about my personal life. Until last year’s August, i shut down that blog and open this one.

I open this blog as i am now in uni, a new phase of my life, and i think everything should be different. That blog was my past. It was time to turn over a new leaf, i thought. So here i am at the new blog though not attractive and flaws are everywhere.

But i can say the way i write had changed for better from the past. In terms of English, my grammar has improved. But there’s still room for improvement.

The drive for me to change and write better English came when i open this blog. As my previous blog not visited by any readers at all, i don’t care about my English. I laughed when read back my old posts. The grammar was so broken!! But now, i have visitors. I need to take good care of my image and this blog’s image!!

And having visitors and comments at my blog are fun!! Last time when i wrote something i got no response. After some time will feel bored. Now, after posting new post, i’ll be waiting for comments. The feeling of receiving comments is fun too!! So everyone out there, please leave comments ya?

There is it. To new heights of blogging, cheers!!

The End of Sem 3: Finale

As i was told by my friend cum senior, semester 3 will be not easy and will be so damn BUSY!!

Everything will change in this semester upon the departure of that friend, i knew it! His was my company when eating dinner. So, it only left me with another two company for dinner time.
The two of them are always together; some sort of one gang and me and that friend form another gang. There were times me and my friend eat dinner without the other gang. The worst thing was that they will either inform us last minute or never inform us at all if they not joining us for dinner.

Now that my friend had left, i was worried that i had to eat alone every time whenever they were busy. Oh, by the way, that was the excuse they gave us for not joining us dinner. How lame was it? No matter how busy they are, they still have to eat rite? Just gave us plain excuse..

That was what i thought – eating alone whenever they are busy. But i never know that they are THAT busy every time i asked whether got dinner anot? I was rejected every time i asked for a dinner. That whole January was a stressful and disappointment month for me. Stressful because need to cope with new and tough level-two subjects. Disappointment because never-ending rejection from them. My mind will start thinking whether they want to have dinner with me or not? And sometimes i will scare to text them, trying not to receive those rejecting messages. For this whole one semester, we only eat dinner together twice.

I did receive messages from him saying they are busy, not eating dinner. I continue receive those messages until my CNY break. After the break, never receive any messages from them. Usually one of them will contact me as we are closer because we were schoolmates. From the break onwards, we never text each other anymore. Guess he also sien to write the same message over again. Me, on the other hand, also malas to message because i don’t want to face the disappointment anymore.

In the end, i either had my dinner alone or i didn’t eat. I can’t remember how i went through those time eating alone but thank gosh it all had already gone. I don’t have any problem eating alone but i just mind the glances from other people. People will be saying: so kolian this guy eat alone. No friends to teman. Ok, no one actually saying those lines, just i thought myself.

But luckily i still have my very own classmates. They were my company for dinner. Whenever after class, we’ll go eat dinner together. So, February and March were better months; got people eating dinner with me. And i also like to eat dinner with my big group of friends rather than 4 guys including me last time. With more people, more talk and more laughter!! And most importantly, i was happier and my bond with them got stronger!!

Maybe i should thank the two of them. If they continue accompanying me, i won’t get closer with my classmates. I, myself could not think we got closer by eating dinner every time.

The friend that left me specifically asked how was my ex-schoolmate doing? I simply replied him: i don’t know. Long time didn’t see him. Didn’t eat dinner with him liao. He was surprise with my reply. He asked me what happen but i couldn’t reply his question because i myself also don’t know what happen. Fine. They don’t want to eat dinner with me simply because they don’t want to see me. I got it. That ex-schoolmate brushed me aside, he brushed our 7 years of friendship aside too. There was once i met him at cafeteria, i didn’t know what to talk to him. May be long time didn’t meet up, no topic to talk edi.

That goes our friendship...

Living with Good Feng Shui by Lillian Too

I was never a book-reader. To the extreme extent, i hate reading books. The only book i read is textbook.

It is because i have no choice but to read those thick books. And i have to bring those heavy books to class. In uni, i have to read the textbook and make my own notes. Unlike those days in secondary school, i was spoon-feed with good quality of notes from tuition centre and i need to do is to read them. Reading those notes were enough for exams.

I know reading is a good hobby, but i’m just lazy to read. Last year i bought two books and up till now, i don’t even finish one of them!! Sigh. I tried to pick-up this good habit but every time i read the book, my mind will fly to somewhere else. Never concentrate on the storyline. That’s why reading book is boring activity!!

But there’s always an exception. There is one category of book that i will read’em all. That’s Lillian Too’s Feng Shui books. Or i should say all Feng Shui and astrological books, i will read. That’s my interest la. So i will read all.

Purposely went to Jusco Bkt Raja today to buy this book as can’t find it at Bkt Tinggi Popular. Had been reading her book few years ago. I really heart her though many people dislike her because she always call people to buy her stuff.

this book is more expensive than my thick textbook...

Just checked my result. Got the worst ever result. Instead of straight A, i got straight Bs!! 3 B+ and 1 B. Oh plz someone tell me this is not the real result!! I aimed better result. I thought i can get A for biochem and management. But i got B+ for genetics, can’t believe it could make it. So sad to see the result. To think of it, maybe i didn’t put my very best effort in the exam as i thought. Guess i really deserve it.. Padam muka saya..

The End of Sem 3: Finals

The finals for semester 3 was tough. Tougher than other semester. I was under great pressure during the week. But felt better when i burst into tears after i had my BIO paper.

I knew the papers will be tough. But did not expect they were that tough. Some papers i managed to pull off but some i did not.

Maybe i was over-confident after the first two papers. Management and biochemistry papers were not to say easy but still managed to do.

Management paper was straight forward one. Pretty confident with this. We expect Biochemistry paper won’t be tough, after all the paper was set by an incompetent lecturer. How can be set some tough paper while he has no high qualification to teach us in this subject?

After these two papers, i was kinda slacking..

Consequence?

Got major blow in the exam hall. My mind went blank looking at Biology paper. Many of the questions i roughly know nia. I did badly in that paper. I couldn’t remember all the points. I had to eat up all 20 topics of notes for this subject. I slept only 3 hours at that night.

On the other hand, the most-afraid Genetics paper turned out not so bad as i expect.. I can say that this time’s paper was easier compare to previous semester.. thank gosh i manage to do it. At least i manage to write something out. Last time, in the test, i don’t even understand what the question asking. Now at least i understand the questions and manage to crap about.

Nevertheless, it was all over. No point to cry over the spilled milk. The result should be out in next few days. Whatever the result is, i will face it. I had put on my very best, and that’s what matters, right? (haha, just to console myself..)

Under Threat

The Tan’s family is now under threat!!

My house got burgled. Broken into the kitchen. Luckily it was the kitchen not inside the house.

We suspect they broken into around the afternoon when we were out for lunch. In that 2 hours, they took all steel made stuffs. Though the stuffs were not very valuable but just that we have been using them since we moved into this house. The stuff got sentimental values edi...

We had been warned by our neighbour that someone looked like a drug addict was looking inside our house. So, my mum took all valuable stuffs and keep them inside my home. They would have taken all those valuable stuffs if my mum didn’t store them inside.

My parents were on holiday. Left me alone in the house when the brother and sister are out for work. With this incident, i even more scared to be alone at home. Bad things always happen in the wrong time.

I curse that blardy drug addict to death! Curse him died of overdose of drug he taking!! Curse him to be burnt in hell!!

I know cursing other people die is very bad, but sometimes those people REALLY DESERVED it!!

The End of Sem 3

Laziness took the best of me. Lazy to write..

Most of my time spent jaga-ing the baby nephew and of course playing game!! Played Metal Slug on computer. Brings me back to my sweet childhood time...

Semester 3 ended last week. This semester marks the departure of my classmates. 5 of them will be leaving for Australia in coming July.

Somehow, i don’t feel sad or having heavy-hearted knowing they gonna leave us.. My another group of friends were telling how they going to miss them. And i asked myself in my heart: do i feel sad or will miss anyhting? No, the answer. Feel so guilty for not having those feeling.

The reason why i dun have feeling is because they and i are not close. I hardly know them despite they are my close friends. I hardly join them whenever there’s any outing. The most is having dinner together. After dinner, went back to our respective room and no contact with them anymore. No chatting over MSN or texting over phone. Heck, i don’t even have all their MSN and phone numbers!!

Often times i would receive the you-don’t-know look with both eyebrows raised from my friends when they said some outdated news regarding our friends. I always the last person to know about any news or rumours or gossips about my friends. Last time in secondary school, i used to be the first person to know all gossips because the disseminator sat beside me. haha..

But those are history. Now, our bonds are strong than last time. I getting to know about them and they get to know me. We supposed to be good friends earlier!! Hopefully in semester 4, my bond with them get stronger!!

I know it will...

First Trip With Classmates

So many things i want to write but very lazy lar.. With 2-week holiday, i think i’ll write them all before the next semester resume. I’ll start off writing about my trip to Johor bah...

Had 4 days 3 night trip to Pulau Kukup. A simple trip but holds many sweat and memorable memories. This was my first holiday trip with my classmates. Last year i didn’t want to go but since this time was special because this might be our last trip before everyone depart. 5 of my coursemates will be going to Australia in July. Not forgetting this was my first time going to Johor and Batu Pahat & Pulau Kukup!! So malu to say first time visiting Johor.

Reached YJun’s house at Batu Pahat on Thursday evening. His house was spacious (2 semi-D house join to become a bungalow) but not very grand as compare to other houses over there. We were a bit scare to meet his father as his father is strict. YJun himself said that. Knowing that his father is strict, we have to speak politely and dare not to speak loudly, unlike us in normal time. One word to describe his father: yeng or cool. He has that businessman look, the leader-of-the-family look, manly build & bald!! So yeng!! Though he appeared to be cool, i find him friendly and very generous person (businessman traits). He bought us so much food for BBQ dinner for third dinner and taught us how to BBQ salted-prawn. Afterall, he’s not as strict as my friend described.

Went to Pulau Kukup on the second day afternoon. The tiring part was to travel in a van from Batu Pahat to Kukup for more than an hour!! And that van’s air-condition was malfunction!! The girls sat behind singing non-stop from the YJun’s place until reach Kukup. From childhood songs to adult songs. From oldies to the modern songs. I don’t know where their energy come from to sing along the whole journey.. Whereas the boys, listening to mp3 and slowly dozed off.

The moment i reached the destination, smelled the smelly fish smell. It’s like in the pasar. Looking at the surrounding and houses there, i thought i reached Pulau Ketam! Haha.. Pulau Kukup is no different from Pulau Ketam!! Afterall, both are fishing village, they have similar house structure.

The only difference between them was, Pulau Ketam has better seafood than Pulau Kukup. Maybe the restaurant’s fault, Pulau Kukup’s seafood is not as delicious as in Pulau Ketam. The prawn, crab and fish not fresh at all. Pulau Ketam still the best in terms of food lah..

We stayed at a house or a resort. It was more like a homestay. As it was a kampong area, the only entertainment we had was karaoke system, mahjong set, and a pin-pong table. Again, my friends sing K non-stop. Tak boleh tahan mereka... Thanks to mahjong set, it saved me from dying of boredom. We played from YJun’s house to Kukup. Then after went back to YJun’s house, we continue playing until the last day.. i was addicted to it. I rarely play mahjong, only get to play during CHY time. I’m no expert before this. But after for so many days, i can safely say i’m promoted to amateur level. Haha.. Even some of my friends at first don’t know how to play also got addicted after knowing how to play.

For the whole trip, i spent slightly less than RM150. Most of the money used was on transportation and the accommodation including food. We were well-taken off by YJun’s parents. Our breakfast, lunch, and diner were all under his parents!! Really need to thank to his parent’s hospitality.

Though my classmates and i are close friends, but i barely know them. Through this trip, i knew more about them. I can say our friendship had promoted to a higher level. I saw my close friend, Shake, can be that playful and funny. I saw my usually quite-type friend, YTeng, talk a lot than normal time. And the best was seeing SJie’s playing piano. She literally turned into another person (good form) the moment she started to play. Everyone of us was wow-ed. She played beautifully and her inner beauty showed up!! I almost fall for her. Haha.. but i like someone who knows how to play piano or any other music instruments. I hope my lover knows how to play piano. I will love him so much one lor..

The part that i like most during this whole trip was the heart-to-heart talk session. I learned many things about them and know some juicy gossips as well. We were interrogated with usual questions among friends – who do you like among the friends? That’s the question i was trying to avoid!! How can i like a girl while i’m gay le? If i pretend to say i like some other girl, who know one day they know i’m gay, what they will think about me? A hypocrite? I replied: i didn’t like anyone (referring to the girls in my class).

All in all, luckily i didn’t miss this trip or else i would miss a lot of sweet memories.. After the trip, my friends said they will be sad our friends that going to Aussie but i don’t really have the sad feeling. That means our friendship bonding not strong enough to make me feel sad upon their departure.. i wonder if they will feel the same way, if i was the one leaving soon??

p.s. woohoo.. finished downloading all episodes for Brothers & Sisters season 1. Will spend the whole 2 weeks watching them all!!!

It's Over!!

It's over for goodness sake!!

Just finished my final for semester 3. It's time to PARTY!!!

In few minutes' time, i'll be going to Pulau Kukup, Johor with classmates..

Finally can have a good night sleep after late sleeping for 3 nights consecutively...

Giving Up..

It’s not the first time feeling like this. In fact, every time around this week(week before finals) will have this sort of feeling.

What makes this time different from previous one is that, this time i really, really think of giving up. The subject is too tough for me! I feel so hopeless right now...

Still got so many chapters yet to be studied in very short time. Finals’ starting next Monday!! Yet i still find myself writing this post and took time off for guilty pleasure!! Time wasted..

I need a wake-up call!! I don’t have much time for all these entertainment!! And i can’t seem to concentrate when studying. My mind will wander around.

The subject that gives me the most heartache is genetics. Not that my lecturer not good(she’s good at explaining), i just me myself can’t get it. Hate PCR, DNA microarray, Southern blot, etc. Totally want to give up on those chapters!!

But i can’t! I have to get at least 65% to transfer to Australia. That’s the minimum requirement. Haiz.. hopefully i will get through this time...

Final Week

Just got back Qing Ming.

One more week to go to finish this semester. A torturing semester, i would say.

My result has drop downhill. All due to lotsa distraction around me. Lack of concentration, procrastination and laziness attribute to my deterioration in my results.

For biochem, i’ll just read and concentration the tips the lecturer gave. If he comes out anything not from the tips, die lo.. i know it’s very risky but i still don’t understand even though i read so many times..

Biology, seems to be an easy subject but never perform in it. Had hard time to memorise those scientific names of organisms. Worst of all, no tips given at all..

Management, easy if i remember those theories. As long as i about to crap about, it should be fine..

Genetics pulak, my weakest subject of all. It’s a tough subject and i can’t perform in this subject. I just pray hard and cross my fingers that i will pass this subject.

All i need to do is put on more effort in my studies!! All the while i haven’t put my very best in studying and take things lightly.

Having said that, i pledge to cut off my time for internet, MSN, facebook, blogging and reading blogs. i so gonna disconnect with the world!! This is the last shot from me. It’s either DO or DIE!! I must pass all those subjects and get an average of 65%!! So, wish me luck!!

PS, i bought my first ever Starbucks tumbler last week during the Earth Hour. It wasn’t a nice design as i don’t have much varieties but i like the simplicity just like my style..