Worrying in 2010

With less than 7 days to 4^th of January, i am worrying!!! Probably the most worried thing in 2010. My class will resume on next week Monday. Why am i worrying? There are a few reasons why i am worrying.

After not touching any books for like 2 months, i quite worried if my brain still can work as usual. On top of that, the next semester’s subjects would be so so hard!!! All these thanks to my friend, kc. He has been telling me how hard is this subject and so many people fail because of these two subjects – Genetic and Biochemistry. I am so worried if i could cope with these subjects. Hopefully i can make it loh...

I realised i don’t like those days over there. I hate there very much. The space is so limited and the room is so small. I cannot surf the net with high speed connection. I cannot surf porn blog cause maybe get caught. Worse still it’s GAY porn blog. I cannot see and play with me cute nephew. I cannot slack around doing not doing my chore at room. I cannot rely on my parents and other people to do things for me.

Next, the main reason why i am worrying is that i will be alone eating dinner. Since kc already finish studying, left only me and sow and yhuoi. I always eat dinner with them. Often time they would suddenly tell me they won’t join us for dinner last minute. Sometimes i waited them so long and then suddenly tell me not eating dinner with me. I waited so long till very hungry then tell me no dinner? At that time most of the stalls already sold finish their food!!! Haiz.... Worse still, now inti doesn’t allow us to use polystyrene food container. That means i cannot tapao la!! If cannot tapoa, then eat at dining hall alone? so paiseh if meet my classmate.

Besides that, i am alright going back there studying. I hope got somebody to eat dinner with me every time not worrying he would suddenly didn’t join me. i hope also i would be better friends with my classmates. I hope we could get closer. I hope i would not be inferior when we get closer. I hope i am more open and join them. I hope all my hopes above can realise.

I am really, really worried right now. Hopefully there is miracle come true....

p.s. i somehow keep thinking 2010 would be better year in my head. Hopefully it's a good year to me and other people...