My heart broke into pieces right now... So damn kau sad... It shattered in pieces beyond repair...
Remember that hunky neighbour? Well, he’s just another straight guy like no other people..
Before this i was accusing him gay!! Basically i accuse everyone gay lo. Not knowing myself is one of them!! Hahaha..
In the first place, why do i say him gay? You see, he walks everywhere with his boxer on. On top of that, he’s not wear anything, just boxer alone. Doesn’t it make him gay?
Ok now, what makes me not-so gay? Despite the boxer, his briefs are those cheap one. That’s so de-gaying. And he has an uncle-alike t-shirt. Poor fashion taste. So not gay!!
And the most confirmative reason, he has girlfriend. I saw him holding a girl’s hand at dining hall. So, it’s confirm. No case. Period.
That explains why i am sad and heart-broken right now. Worse of all, i still got my test 1 in GEN later!! How am i going to concentrate in this situation? Argh!!!
Anyway, i don’t have a thing with him. I’m not sad. I just feel wasted for the gay community; wasted such a fine guy. When looks closer to him, you can see his flaws la. so, in the end, not that fine la. Wahahaha.. what kind of person am i? Degrade him because i can’t get him. Cheh. But to think of it, maybe it’s good to know he has gf. At least, i try not to go gaga over him anymore, right?
Ok. Need to stop here and prepare for test later at 4 pm. Hopefully i won’t fail and i don’t expect it gonna be easy one...
p.s. maybe he can be a bi? There should be chance for him to be a bisexual since he so love his body.. Gay always obsessed with his body...
I’m so damn kau excited lo!! I can feel my sex hormone is in my blood right now... and this sex hormone just makes me so excited.
*look at the clock* WAT!! It’s 2.21 am and i still not yet on bed?
I am so excited and i decide to write this down. I have been really, really busy lately due to tonnes of reports and assignment to hand in. I need to hand in 7 reports including journals in this week. Slept very late. And now i still writing this post.
Why on earth am i so excited?
It’s about that hunky neighbour. I finally saw him topless in near proximity (actually last Monday i saw in topless). We were in the toilet just now. i scanned his body. He wears boxer and walks everywhere with it!!
Ok la. Can consider a hunk though he has no visible six packs. A meaty one. Unlike HIM, a lean body. He goes to gym every day i suppose as he has the fitness center towel.By judging his muscular body, he must be a gym rat la...
He’s a hunk. And that drives me crazy!!! Hahaha... if i’m not mistaken, he’s the first hunk that i ever seen topless in reality! Of course i saw endless time on internet la, but not in reality and in close proximity.
*Back to reality*
I still like HIM to this hunky one. i don’t know, maybe i encountered HIM more time than the hunky one. And i had more feelings to HIM. (as if i had anything with HIM before).
In the end, i need to get rid of this hunky one from my head as fast as possible before my idiot brain start to think nonsense.
p.s. tomorrow i still got test 1 for GEN and i still haven’t sleep!! It’s 2.37 am!! Argh!!!!
Haiz... Dinner alone again.. Anyway, i just had a hearty and happy dinner meal!!
I ate homecook spaghetti tonight. Yesterday my sister cooked spaghetti for brunch. And i tapao for tonight's dinner.
My mum asked me to eat for lunch but i leave it for dinner.
As the pasta was cold, i boil with hot water and also to make the pasta warm.
the pasta..
Then pour the sauce to the pasta.
a good spaghetti always comes with good sauce..
a hearty meal!!!
And voila!! A hearty meal!!! As i preparing the dinner, i was smiling to myself. I was happy!! Or maybe i was numb already with eating alone.. Or maybe i was not happy at all; i pretended to be happy.
it's always good to eat together with a cuppa of coffee...
Anyway, i still had a meal. A good and delicious meal.
I like this mashup from DJ Earworm. And he did a good job. My friends like this too!!!
Below are the mashuped songs title. Bolded are songs that i like and listen often...
The Black Eyed Peas - BOOM BOOM POW Lady Gaga - POKER FACE Lady Gaga Featuring Colby O'Donis - JUST DANCE The Black Eyed Peas - I GOTTA FEELING Taylor Swift - LOVE STORY Flo Rida - RIGHT ROUND Jason Mraz - I'M YOURS Beyonce - SINGLE LADIES (PUT A RING ON IT) Kanye West - HEARTLESS The All-American Rejects - GIVES YOU HELL Taylor Swift - YOU BELONG WITH ME T.I. Featuring Justin Timberlake - DEAD AND GONE The Fray - YOU FOUND ME Kings Of Leon - USE SOMEBODY Keri Hilson Featuring Kanye West & Ne-Yo - KNOCK YOU DOWN Jamie Foxx Featuring T-Pain - BLAME IT Pitbull - I KNOW YOU WANT ME (CALLE OCHO) T.I. Featuring Rihanna - LIVE YOUR LIFE Soulja Boy Tell 'em Featuring Sammie - KISS ME THRU THE PHONE Jay Sean Featuring Lil Wayne - DOWN Miley Cyrus - THE CLIMB Drake - BEST I EVER HAD Kelly Clarkson - MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT YOU Beyonce - HALO Katy Perry - HOT N COLD
I think he's a bit biased. The Black Eyed Peas' Boom Boom Pow and I Gotta Feeling played the most. Hey, where's Kelly Clarkson's Already Gone? It wasn't a hit? I like it so much though...
Yesterday was a good, good night. I spent one whole day with my classmates till late 2.30 am!!
Before the good night, i was on fire with my BCH lecturer, Mr Wong. I’m sure my other classmates were so angry with our lecturer. He’s suck in teaching us, but in the lab, he didn’t perform at all. All he did was just sat in front and let us to our own experiment. He should have briefed us before leaving us to do our experiment. At first, i thought maybe we are in 2nd level and we should be more independent and he need not to brief us. Fine enough.
The problem arose when he was unable to answer our questions on the experiment. To make things worse, he gave the wrong instruction and caused much doubts in our experiment. One of our classmates (Hafizat), hit the table to show her anger as our lecturer gave the wrong procedure. Worse still, he didn’t even know how to operate a spectrophotometer!! Ok, maybe that machine was new to him, but he could have learnt how to use it or at least refer to our lab manual. I refer to the lab manual and i taught other my friends how to use it. See i can become lecturer also... oh, did i mention the experiment i did was the same with other class which they had their lab class few days before us? Which that means the lecturer held the same experiment with other class and he gave the wrong procedure? I seriously wonder what he did in the lab loh... And what the heck did the student in other class do? They baiknya follow what he said even though it was wrong?
He had given me bad time in his lecture class but i keep cool. Not until the lab class where he not even prepare himself with the procedure. At times we needed to correct him. He as a lecturer uttered “i just learn from your friend” to my friends showed he didn’t know anything before we taught him. All i could say is life’s a learning process. He learn something from the lecturer and the lecturer learn something from us, student..
Immediately after the lab, all of us, if not most of us, were very angry with him. It was like DSCAU students were on fire. I really can’t be patient with this kind of guy anymore. And he planned to take revenge on me and my other friends? Mr Lim warned us on Wednesday that Mr Wong had the thought of taking revenge on those who make noise in his class, who was me. Mr Lim said he is a biased lecturer whereby he would purposely give low marks to students he dislike. We decided not to make noise and pretend to be friendly with him.
Now, how can i pretend to be friendly and respect with him while he has nothing for me to respect him? Maybe he’s unable to deliver his BCH knowledge to us but in his GEN subject he has no problem. Fine. As of BCH, this is the first time he teaches this subject.
We went ga-ga and wanted to talk or complaint to the dean, Dr Ang. After much consideration with other classmates, we opt to softer way by talking to Mr Wong. Hopefully we could see his change for better.
Don’t want to talk about him anymore. Let’s talk about my much afraid dinnertime. We consulted Ms See and also complaining with her abt Mr Wong. We talked so long until dinnertime. She ajak us for dinner together with Mr Lim. We had dinner at Auntie Jenny. My first visit in this semester.
After dinner we met at block H common room to discuss with other program classmates while finishing Yan Jun’s birthday card. My card was the most plain as others decorated so nice. After finishing the card at around 12.30 am, we walked to Yan Jun’s apartment and gave him a surprise!! I think he was touched. Had supper at al-salam till 2 in the morning. Reached my room at 2.30, shower, and brush my teeth. Slept at 3 am.
A good night indeed. Early in the morning, my radio played Black Eyed Pea’s “I Gotta Feeling” song. See, my night also good...
I don’t know why. I think I’m gayer... Owning new trunk underwear makes me gayer? I bet not.
After a never ending dilemma, i bought myself new underwear! This is the first time i buy underwear by my own. Usually, i will tell my mother my underwear is depleting and she will settle for me. She would buy Club Man brand for me, my father and my brother. But, don’t know since when, my brother buy his underwear himself.
I planned to buy alone in KLCC last 2 Sundays but failed because no time. I managed to check out the price. Renoma and Jockey are the most affordable brand for me. I actually want to buy 2(x)ist underwear. They look nice.
After surveying, at last i bought Renoma Invinsible series. I chose the trunk instead of brief. This time i bought in AEON Bkt Tinggi last Thursday when i was on holiday. I also watched Avatar on that day. I think no one saw me at innerwear department at that time kua? If anyone that i know saw me at that department and buying trendy underwear, i’ll be dead!! Owning trendy ones rather than conventional underwear seem so gay to most of the people. What’s more if it’s a trunk underwear? People would be saying me gay at my back!!
Anyway, i bought it. And wearing it now as i write this. Truly invinsible, it’s comfortable and smooth as if not wearing!! Now i just wear it without wearing my usual shorts in room. I even wear it when sleeping. I want to maximize this trunk while i still have the time to wear. I will not bring it back home for my mum to wash! She would be shock if she knows i buy trendy and expensive underwear like this one. And i plan to throw them at the end of this year as i can’t it back. This trunk is specially worn in here.
p.s. i like this trunk even though it is expensive than usual brief. And I’m a step closer to gayhood!!
p.p.s. plz go to brother blog for more pictures!!
I think my neighbour next dooris a porn actor in asian gay porn!! He's definitely not from Malaysia. Perhaps Myanmar? Philippine?
The first time i came here, a chinese guy stayed that room. He looks like ordinary Chinese school boy except his hairstyle. My hairstyle looks more like the Chinese school boys. So, usually Chinese school boys will listen to Chinese songs instead English songs. To my surprise he listens to English songs!! He listens to Chinese songs too lah. Second surprise, he plays ABBA's song!!! OMG!! I can't believe it!! All my perceptions towards him is wrong!! I thought he's that kind of guy has strong influence of Chinese culture. Ok i judge people. That's make me thinking others judge me too. I'm fine with him staying next to me as he didn't give problem to me.
Now, in my third semester, he moved out from that room. Last week, I saw an African guy came out from that same room!! OMG!!! Scare the hell out of me!! I'm always skeptical with them. I'm scare with them... Luckily this one looks friendly and not fierce.
Not long after i first saw him, i didn't see anymore. A new resident came in. A porn star. Yesterday i saw him moved into the room. He's totally looks like those actors from asian gay porn. And i think he looks gay. Hahahaha. Accusing other people gay loh...
All in all, I am quite lucky that my neighbourhood are decent and not smoking. And they are clean type. Our pantry is always clean. But there are some people who like to waste electricity one lor... They don't switch off the fan when not use. I always switch off the fan when i see no one using it. Don't want resources mah... I green-man mah...
The hunky guy staying apposite my room wearing boxer or very short, short pant while he tidying up his bed. He generously leave his door open to let me see his hot body.
I can even see vividly his bubble butt shape!!! Did i mention he's topless?? OMG!!! HOT!!! HOT!!!
I guess he's a gym rabbit with that hunky body. I wanted to curi-curi take his picture but i scare lah. I'm already brave enough to stare at him or his bubble butt!!!
Just got back from dinner with friends. Yup, with friends – the same friends used to eat dinner. We went to KFC. This is my second time eating KFC over here.
I was at dining hall while my classmate bought take out. I messaged sow to ask for dinner. If he said no dinner, then i can buy my take out there also. Out of surprise, he said: we want to eat KFC, wanna join? Of course i want la!!! Wow, i was indeed surprise that i will not eat dinner alone!!! I thought I’ll eat dinner alone again...
So, I try to figure why this time so lucky i will not have to eat dinner alone... Maybe the God answer my pray? Before this i said: i will have to eat dinner alone regardless whether i masturbate or not. See, call me superstitious or what. I always regard masturbation as bad omen. I’ll have bad luck if i masturbate. I experience many uneventful incidents to make up this theory of mine.
Since i was lucky enough to not having dinner alone, i decided not to masturbate tonight which i planned to. I had streamed porn from Asian Boys Heaven this morning. Never mind, i will save it for tomorrow...
Anyway, if i don’t masturbate tonight, it doesn’t mean i will not eat dinner alone at all in the future. Just that i am superstitious. Whether i masturbate or not, it will not change the fact – eating alone. It is they do not want to eat dinner with me. Apparently they had dinner at KFC before this time. That means they had dinner without calling me. I don’t think they will ask me out today if i don’t message sow...
Anyway, i appreciate what i had today. And i hope it will be like this till i finish my studies here. Try to be positive lah...
About me? An ordinary guy who is studying at Nilai, geeky type and afraid of not getting good result. A person who has many secrets about him but afraid to reveal to public. Hence, here is the place I reveal my secrets bit by bit without any knowledge of my family and friends.
